A hidden world......

Everybody has a set of goals and dreams they want to achieve. This may range from the amount of money they want to make to the place they want to settle in to a house for themselves with a convertible parked in front.............in short a wish-list of where they should be or what they should have done by such and such a time.
There is (and I want to believe this for everyone) a list of things which we have seen or heard and they appeal to us so much that we put them on a dream-list. They are the ones which begin with the words "I want to para-glide someday.......I wish I could own a horse someday". A crazy fantasy world of things which we wish we could believe would come true , but we have a line in that belief which leans more towards disbelief and so they stay just like that ........ as wishes. :) The former set was something we have to do and achieve and it is solely dependent on us. The second is what life decides to give us or bring across our way.

I guess I am not making much sense at all. :) So be it!! I have a wish-list too ...(I can just hear you say, ahh now you tell us, this was the point you were tryingto get at for so long :)....yes you are right!!) My wishlist includes sitting cross-legged on top of a mountain ........blue mountains covered with snow which infringe on a green valley. The valley slopes steeply in front of me and there are trees with overhanging boughs over where I sit. It would be great if the mountains were the Kanchenjunga , becoz there are no other mountains which have made me fall in love at first sight.
I also want to own a horse someday. Not own , ride, with the wind racing past us ......... galloping trotting , running and racing. A brown horse with a star on his head (this is probably due to the influence of Dreamer which I saw today evening.) But when I ride him, I want us both to fly and to watch the scenery go racing past us. I have often wondered especially in some of the last few days........ when a deer runs, it can have all four of its feet it the air at the same time. When a horse runs , how many legs are in the air ? (:) can I hear grumbling at the amount of rambling I do). But I am sure you will agree with me there is quite nothing as beautiful as watching the horse run free. Do you remember Gandolf's white horse come racing in LOTR! Something like that and something so beautiful.
Now let me see, what else do I want to do. I want to sail and surf as well. And to do it deftly so that I don't end up swallowing salt-water everytime a large wave comes by.

Why the sudden wishlists ! Well I happened to see the movie Dreamer . It stars Dakota Fanning and Kurt Russell and is a childrens' movie and if you are the kind who is reading and thinking ooohhhhh god!! not again , its probably not meant for you. It shows the world through the optimistic eyes of a child and how hope is so easy to come by and yet so hard. It plays two worlds side-by-side and the best part ends happily ....... :) but it leaves you wishing you could ride a horse to glory so that "the heavens might open up and grounds shake under your feet"..... and the sweet smell of victory , of battles won rise up to greet you.
Winning can become an addiction.

I have never talked to Bruno as if he could understand me ....(ok !! now this girl has gone crazy. :) ) But I have seen my mother do so and Bruno reciprocate with understanding, with anger, with confusion ......each of the emotions written as plainly on his face as they are on ours. The only time I have felt helpless in trying to make him understand (becoz all I would ever do was doggy talk to him) was when I would hug him and cry to him and he would become agitated seeing my tears. Maybe one day I will be able to make him understand and understand him without resorting to doggy talk.
And one day I shall own a horse and race him across green fields..........:)

I know I have a tendency to overly romanticize things and catch on to anything which gives me a break or flight from the reality of today and tomorrow and yesterday ...... but then the day I stop dreaming I don't think I will be young anymore. .......... or have a neverland I can fly to........ whenever I want.