Leaving ... is difficult

I shouldn't ever look at College snaps..... I just have to start once and there's no end to all sentiments that come rushing in. Interestingly enough , and I know everyone who has tasted college life would say this..... How come I cursed it so much when I was actually there. Now the roads, canteens, everything seems so close to heart ....from thousands of miles away.
So I am at a college/university/school now too. How come its so different! Or is it that places leave their flavor only after you have left them and gone ! I Have always talked about how hot Tucson is ..... well that other day , while in the cat tran shuttle, it had rained ...... there was the smell of dried mud soaking in the rain, and Tucson looked beautiful. So much so, that I actually felt bad that I was going to leave it in a year. For all these days, all I have ever said is when am I going to leave Tucson.
Guess all I want is to hold on to something familiar, and when the time comes to change ...I resist with all my might. I loved Seattle, no doubt, and I should be happy to be going back there. At a point of time the crowded streets, too many people of Seattle used to remind me of home. Now I think I am kind of getting used to the empty Tucson roads, the hardly meeting any people when you walk to the university, the soaring Catalinas in the north and their play of shadows with the sun...... :)
So typically me ! Just when the time to leave Tucson is drawing near, I feel I will really miss it.

I seem to be living from assignment to assignment these days. The course load has exploded and all I can keep in mind is when the next assignment is due. Its fun ... sometimes not my kind but. I like the kind of fun which comes with less work. And I am sure the sentences are making lesser and lesser sense, I am not a good stay-awake-after-sleeping-only-4 hours kind of person.

So cheers Tucson ! and adieus !

Tongue tied - brain tied - whatever....

I have always been tongue-tied for as long as I can remember. There have been so many times when I have been asked the time, and all I can do is stare blankly at my watch trying to figure out what on earth the position of the two hands on the watch could mean. Or even worse, I would offset the time by an hour and people would respond that that's not possible. Then I would mutter an-under-my-breath apology and hurry away. Its always been like this - I wonder what it is between me and sudden questions. I can never get my brain to react fast enough. I might as well mutter something like "blargh" and that would make more sense than when I do try to speak coherent words.
Thats not the only thing, ask me the name of a person I meet practically everyday suddenly, or a birthday ........ I go completely blank. I think the key word is "sudden". Me and sudden dont go together ... I must have an extremely lazy brain, lazier than me.
Here, people are usually very polite and generally greet you with a "Hi, how are you? " or "How are you doing?" Initially I found it easier to smile than muster up an answer from the depths of my unresponding brain. Then I had this answer of "Good, how are you ?" sort of taped in to my brain so I could respond without thinking.
So guess what happens, a passing fellow asks me "Whats up ? " and all I can reply is "Good" and then due to some dull quick thinking manage to change the second half of my answer to "How are.....is it going for you ?"
I don't think I will ever change or rather my slow responding brain will ever change. !!!